Okay. I got knocked for a total loop there. It's been a crazy month, mostly spent getting my head and heart to work together again. I've been making plans. Big plans. Changes, too.
Right now, I'm mostly excited about going to D.C. in Washington for the march. I just snagged the pattern for my pussyhat, and the perfect yarn is waiting in my stash. I'm not going to regurgitate my November here. The long and the short of it is that November was the birth of activism for me, just as it was for many folks all throughout the country. Any hesitance I had before is gone now. Everytime I start shaking in my shoes over the next commitment to fighting for women in children, the fear is met with a firm command from my heart, "We're doing this." Courage, baby.
I've been thinking a lot today about the day the first proof for Fierce was delivered to our door. How I fell to the ground and couldn't get up. How I called a friend and sobbed and wailed till I almost puked. The creation of Fierce is something I've celebrated never. It is something I rose up through. I suppose all the next steps will be the same. What I am now is commited, grounded, and ready.
I am writing today to ask you for something. Do not forget what abuse is. Do not forget that possessiveness, jealousy, and control are all warning signs. Do not forget that we are called to be good to each other, for goodness sake. Do not forget that out hearts are the sacred center of us. That tenderness is strength, and boundaries keep us strong. None of that has changed.
I went from wanderer to warrior this month. It had been coming for a good long time. Still, this awakenening has been painful. If you're in pain out there, and you're wondering what happens now; if you're feeling like surviving didn't mean a thing if the country thinks its okay to rape, dominate, and control, hold on to this: you are not alone. Far from it. We are all being transformed day in and day out. Be present to your pain, forgive, hold on tight to goodness and mercy, and ride up through the storm. You'll find your warrior strength in it. Just don't give up, whatever you do. The struggle is a catalyst for courage, and we're going to need a whole lot of it if we're going to smash the patriarchy.
Love, Love and more Love, Sisters
Hi! It's me, Anna.
Leaving these musings here for you and me both.