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I long.
I long a lot. Mostly I long for roots. Physical roots. A home that I know will be forever come hell or high water. A home I can plant berry bushes behind and apple trees beside and know that I will be there when they are ready to give me fruit. A home I can look out from and watch the sun set knowing that is is my sunset. My angle. My vision. For the rest of my life. I long. I long until the tears are brimming in my eyes and my chest tightens and then heaves. I long to know that we are doing the right thing. I long to know that people will show up for us, that we'll settle in the right place, that we will be okay. Mostly I am content with where I am. Mostly. Always I am grateful for what I have. Always. Always. Still, I long. But also, I trust. Also, I believe. It's here now, waiting for me to step in. What are you longing for? ~A
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Isaac
10/23/2012 01:36:05 pm
I long for a talent, something unique to myself. A defining characteristic. Your unique talents are already present, and your defining characteristics are already visible, I have no doubt. Love yourself. Love the things that make you uncomfortable about you. Once you see yourself as your whole, beautiful self, the world will see you even more clearly, and there will be more opportunity for giving and receiving of love through talents, traits, and trades. <3
rachaelmr
10/30/2012 04:56:12 am
i, too, long for a place. a sense of place to call my own. to dig and grow and work my spirit into the ground for an uplifting life. to teach myself more about this life. i ache for it, too. but sometimes my belief crumbles under the overwhelming feeling that tomorrow never comes. i tend not to ask for help. i tend not to ask for direction. i tend not to trust. but i am glad you remind me to be grateful. i feel i am, but sometimes that might get lost as well. i wish you well - i wish your longing - a happy ending. Rachael, I'm finding that even longing is a blessing. Each tomorrow gives us the opportunity to make or lives in the here and now more and more beautiful. Of course we don't always feel like we're moving forward, but we are. One little day at a time. If there is one thing I've learned this year, it is that trust is the key to movement and guidance. Once I began to lean into trust, my perspective on life shifted in a way that has led to much more joy. If, for now, you cannot lean into trust, I will for you. I have no doubt that you can blossom in the here and now, and that your longings will be realized in the way that is best for you. All you have to do is allow it to happen. <3 Leave a Reply. |
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